Probably been the longest since I wrote here the last time. I guess it was mostly due to the fact that everything was going pretty much as *normal* as it can get since January...With my successful trip to Sochi last month, I was feeling pretty good with everything overall. But then this last two weeks happened...
Amit got sick (always a pain - he's OK now :) )
The bank was/is giving me a really hard time about various shit.
Moving (soon) is turning slightly into a nightmare.
And the most but not least, I had probably the worst two weeks of my career, when I can't really afford any of it (not that I'm ever happy about losing).
So I started feeling shit. My motivation was close to negative. I'm pretty sure I even cried at some point.
It's not a secret I've been thinking for quite some time about my next steps in life. I think A LOT about how I influence other ppl, and how they influence me. And sometimes the most unexpected influence could come from some random person, you wouldn't ever expect it to...
This morning I saw a guy who I didn't see probably for 10 years or so. Apparently married now, with 2 kids. We are friends on FB, But I'm not even sure we exchange BD greetings... He saw me and snap said to me how jealous of me he is... I replied by saying that I only post the good things on FB (such as winners pictures from Sochi), and that reality is far more complicated than that. He said that that's not what he meant...
He's jealous cause I do what I love. He doesn't. Almost no one does.
I forget it sometimes. How blessed I am.
I'm healthy. So is my family. And I do the thing I love the most to do in the world for a living...
Suddenly, all this crap past 2 weeks, feels like a small black dot in a blue lagoon.
I'll get over all that (like Amit did).
I'll win it back and survive all the bureaucracy shit.
And in the day after, I'll probably still be the most fortunate person I know...
P.s
Today is exactly one year since our own Black Friday. I was terrified...
I can say 100% I'm in a better place right now then a year ago. So as always, everything is gonna be alright :)
Saturday, June 24, 2017
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
There's always a next big hi/low
No, in this post I'm not going to be talking about Omaha hi/lo (AKA my favorite MTT format) - I'll be talking about results and emotions...
Every aspect of life has its highs and lows:
Health
Relationships
Emotions
Financial situation
Success @ work
Etc...
Not everyone handles the above the same way - but when you play a high variance game for a living, you have to be very strong at keeping your emotions to the minimum possible, when you reach a new extreme point (both hi/lo).
I had my fair share by now on both of the above, including some recent events. I can't say I'm the best at handling either, but I def improved a lot over the years:
When I make a lot, I try to use/save at least some chunk (unlike the past, when I was mostly trying to leverage). When I lose/miss out on a lot, I normally wake up the next day ready to continue/fight again (so not keeping myself in a bad spirit for more than 24h).
Still, I feel I need to do more "self-work', to be able to separate my job results from my life emotions, and that should be done by (even) better BRM and more experience and hard work overall.
Tomorrow I might lose a bigger pot than ever before, and I have to be ready for it.
Tomorrow I might win (or a horse of mine might win) a bigger tournament than ever before, and I have to be ready for it.
But most important is that I'll keep doing my job the day after tomorrow... Same as my own Staker/Boss does (who can win/lose a shit load of money on a Sunday night, then snap wake up at 6AM on Monday after almost no sleep at all, and keep working with his horses on their games, so they can improve and he can make even more).
The *long term* will be our judge.
Every aspect of life has its highs and lows:
Health
Relationships
Emotions
Financial situation
Success @ work
Etc...
Not everyone handles the above the same way - but when you play a high variance game for a living, you have to be very strong at keeping your emotions to the minimum possible, when you reach a new extreme point (both hi/lo).
I had my fair share by now on both of the above, including some recent events. I can't say I'm the best at handling either, but I def improved a lot over the years:
When I make a lot, I try to use/save at least some chunk (unlike the past, when I was mostly trying to leverage). When I lose/miss out on a lot, I normally wake up the next day ready to continue/fight again (so not keeping myself in a bad spirit for more than 24h).
Still, I feel I need to do more "self-work', to be able to separate my job results from my life emotions, and that should be done by (even) better BRM and more experience and hard work overall.
Tomorrow I might lose a bigger pot than ever before, and I have to be ready for it.
Tomorrow I might win (or a horse of mine might win) a bigger tournament than ever before, and I have to be ready for it.
But most important is that I'll keep doing my job the day after tomorrow... Same as my own Staker/Boss does (who can win/lose a shit load of money on a Sunday night, then snap wake up at 6AM on Monday after almost no sleep at all, and keep working with his horses on their games, so they can improve and he can make even more).
The *long term* will be our judge.
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
They asked me to write something in 2017...
Been ages since I've posted... It's not the I didn't have stuff to write about over the last 4 months, it's just that everything has been so hectic, that I couldn't even think of something specific to focus on.
Amit is now 3.5 months old. He is the best thing that ever happened to me... He's also the toughest creature I had to deal with ever.
He also poops, a lot.
Mr's Tilt calls me "Captain Diapers" - True story.
As if he knows his dad, he is normally being unbearable mostly on Sunday Nights - Knowing it's the one night of each week, when it's really hard for me to help. GJ Junior at giving a f***....
Work Wise it's been really swingy lately - It should have been way better, but I try and focus now on the new year, believing it's going to be awesome and way better than 2016. Our team contains a great bunch of individuals, which I'm sure can do really well, as long as they keep grinding and working their asses out.
I do have much more to write about it, but i'll wait for some good news to break through in each aspect, and elaborate about it when the time comes...
Until next time,
OmgI'mSoDaddy.
Amit is now 3.5 months old. He is the best thing that ever happened to me... He's also the toughest creature I had to deal with ever.
He also poops, a lot.
Mr's Tilt calls me "Captain Diapers" - True story.
As if he knows his dad, he is normally being unbearable mostly on Sunday Nights - Knowing it's the one night of each week, when it's really hard for me to help. GJ Junior at giving a f***....
Work Wise it's been really swingy lately - It should have been way better, but I try and focus now on the new year, believing it's going to be awesome and way better than 2016. Our team contains a great bunch of individuals, which I'm sure can do really well, as long as they keep grinding and working their asses out.
I do have much more to write about it, but i'll wait for some good news to break through in each aspect, and elaborate about it when the time comes...
Until next time,
OmgI'mSoDaddy.
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
GL WCOOP! I mean, for those that play :\
First time I was awake this early mid week in a while, almost lost with so much light :) It's the last day of the summer, but it seems like it's still impossible being outside, as it's so freaking hot...
Def not time to say goodbye.
World Championship of Online Poker starts this Sunday, and for the first time since going Pro, I'll be forced to watch all the heroes from the rail (but won't be able to troll them in the chat box, without having any $ on my PS account). Feels really weird KNOWING I'm the best MTT player in the world, yet missing out on both the WSOP and the online version of the annual world championship.
Work is hectic even more than ever before - I get new students on board daily, we are currently recruiting new horses, and I grind as much as I can with the PS-Free circumstances - All this comes very close to Mrs Tilt's Due Date, which are very very excited for :)
Def not time to say goodbye.
World Championship of Online Poker starts this Sunday, and for the first time since going Pro, I'll be forced to watch all the heroes from the rail (but won't be able to troll them in the chat box, without having any $ on my PS account). Feels really weird KNOWING I'm the best MTT player in the world, yet missing out on both the WSOP and the online version of the annual world championship.
Work is hectic even more than ever before - I get new students on board daily, we are currently recruiting new horses, and I grind as much as I can with the PS-Free circumstances - All this comes very close to Mrs Tilt's Due Date, which are very very excited for :)
GL WCOOP! I mean, for those that play :\
First time I was this awake in mid week in a while, almost lost with so much light :) It's the last day of the summer, but it seems like it's still impossible being outside, as it's so freaking hot...
Def not time to say goodbye.
World Championship of Online Poker starts this Sunday, and for the first time since going Pro, I'll be forced to watch all the heroes from the rail (but won't be able to troll them in the chat box, without having any $ on my PS account). Feels really weird KNOWING I'm the best MTT player in the world, yet missing out on both the WSOP and the online version of the annual world championship.
Work is hectic even more than ever before - I get new students on board daily, we are currently recruiting new horses, and I grind as much as I can with the PS-Free circumstances - All this comes very close to Mrs Tilt's Due Date, which are very very excited for :)
Def not time to say goodbye.
World Championship of Online Poker starts this Sunday, and for the first time since going Pro, I'll be forced to watch all the heroes from the rail (but won't be able to troll them in the chat box, without having any $ on my PS account). Feels really weird KNOWING I'm the best MTT player in the world, yet missing out on both the WSOP and the online version of the annual world championship.
Work is hectic even more than ever before - I get new students on board daily, we are currently recruiting new horses, and I grind as much as I can with the PS-Free circumstances - All this comes very close to Mrs Tilt's Due Date, which are very very excited for :)
Monday, August 15, 2016
Back in Business
Well, It's been ages since my last post.
It's not that I'm not working, or something changed... I've been actually just too busy to find the right words to describe all what's been going on over the last month and a half.
As it's 7:40 AM after a Sunday (way pass my bad time) I'll be short and tell you guys that all in all it seems were BIB!! - no, I'm still banned from PS. BUT...
My guys are alive and kicking.
Sunday session was a success (with a big score by A.B.Y, the guy who def deserved it the most with his recent work and progress), and I'm def pumped for the near future.
Much more new stuff to come!
Ill tell more soon...
It's not that I'm not working, or something changed... I've been actually just too busy to find the right words to describe all what's been going on over the last month and a half.
As it's 7:40 AM after a Sunday (way pass my bad time) I'll be short and tell you guys that all in all it seems were BIB!! - no, I'm still banned from PS. BUT...
My guys are alive and kicking.
Sunday session was a success (with a big score by A.B.Y, the guy who def deserved it the most with his recent work and progress), and I'm def pumped for the near future.
Much more new stuff to come!
Ill tell more soon...
Monday, July 4, 2016
First week/Sunday without looking at the "Stars"...
This first week of Stars-free-life has been weird. I mean, taking a vacation is awesome, but in this story, Amaya won't reverse its decision, so I was currently left mostly job-free.
Unlike a few other guys facing a similar situation, knowing I can't afford to spend any time on bitching/whining, I immediately started taking action to build a new work plan. My first goal was to be able to play some kind of poker on a Sunday night... I ended up finding an opening, and played quite a few birds - Managed to finish with decent profit, and pretty happy with my game tonight overall!
It's going to be rough to get back from this disaster, but at the end of the day, like I always say, there's always a solution. Keeping positive is a key, working hard to get results is another one.
Keep sending that good karma our way !
SoSick didn't finish playing his part in the poker world... he's just allowing all of you little fishies to win something for now... ;)
Unlike a few other guys facing a similar situation, knowing I can't afford to spend any time on bitching/whining, I immediately started taking action to build a new work plan. My first goal was to be able to play some kind of poker on a Sunday night... I ended up finding an opening, and played quite a few birds - Managed to finish with decent profit, and pretty happy with my game tonight overall!
It's going to be rough to get back from this disaster, but at the end of the day, like I always say, there's always a solution. Keeping positive is a key, working hard to get results is another one.
Keep sending that good karma our way !
SoSick didn't finish playing his part in the poker world... he's just allowing all of you little fishies to win something for now... ;)
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