2 tired 2 sleep - GG Varna

6 hours before I fly back to my one and only, and I'm kinda too tired to sleep - last 2.5 days in this shit hole were probably the most hectic I ever had (work, sleep a bit, eat a bit, work). I'm pretty sure I'm never coming back, but def a lot of important experience and information to carry with me.

I have no idea about where and when my next live trip will be, next month or so will be mostly dedicated to working on my game, working with students, and hopefully grinding some BR for the upcoming months.

Wish all my bro's best of luck in Vegas, get those bracelets! This time around, I'll be, unfortunately and most likely, cheering only, from across the other side of the world...
And always make sure u get unstuck :)

Personal note (which I'd recommend to many), from this trip, for my self, for the future - When u get used to the highest class organization, don't get tilted from encountering the lowest...

Variance is a bitch - Still got there!

No, not me... My Finale of Scoop was pretty painful... Toughest 2 weeks of the years ended in the green, but def should/could have done much more.
One of our horses got super close to ship a big one, but missed it too...
No big binks.  We were basically all done, and pretty sad... It was all almost over... Even had an "Epilogue" talk with Mrs Tilt, explaining why I can't buy that cool big house just yet, after being so close again....

BUT then... Team OMG finally got there!!!!!!!! And I could not have been more proud of, and happy for my partner - the man who works the hardest, and deserves it the most!!

Being close so many times, touching it over and over again... It's def a frustrating part of our line of job (MTT's) which we hate but live with without a way of controlling it. That's because Variance is a bitch, FYI.

He just nailed it!
He believed in himself (almost as much as I believed in him).
His Mrs was pushing (us both) around about good karma and vibes every day.

He got there.
We got there.

Now dreams just get bigger, and motivation gets higher...
Work Hard, Get There - That's our business logo!

It is not normal being normal anymore

Me and Mrs tilt talked a lot about me not having any normal friends. Some more than others, but bottom line all of them are fucked up one way or the other (feel free PM'ing me in case you disagree).

Stress is growing to become the number 1 premature death reason in the world. I suffer from it (I cough a lot when I get anxious). Some eat sweets (etc..). Others have to have a drink/ a smoke when tension is high. The worst turn to violence. And many more...But the abnormal behavior we see within society goes way beyond stress and the above disorders - BOTTOM line no one is really normal nowadays, right?

AND IT'S FINE!

Nothing wrong with not being normal. The abnormal is the new normal :)

That's why I don't judge no one for their choices in life, as long as this doesn't affect others - While at the same time I don't like being judged by ppl who don't approve with my line of work, personal relationships and/or private life. I care only about what the MR's tells me, cause she's the boss.

My lifestyle and my line of work doesn't suit most of the population. It doesn't always suit me and my family. BUT IT'S MY LIFE TO LIVE. YOU DON'T LIKE? WE DON'T CARE.

Catching, Taking And Skipping (A Break).

It's hard for me to take a break. Around 36 hours till Scoop Start, on a Vacation with Mrs Tilt, and I'm finding it really hard to think of anything else but the 2 most important weeks of the year..
Wife keeps getting upset with me not able to put my cell phone down for more than 10 minutes straight, but I'm just too anxious - This 2 weeks may have such a big influence on our future, that I'm just not able to let go.

While taking a break is really hard, catching one is necessary - I really need Mr's Variance to be on my side now. I'll be there ready to put on a good fight, so I'm sure will my team be - We just need that small help everyone needs to win an MTT.

Ready to put in those 15 hour work days, 14 days in a row. Ready to skip any the breaks if needed. Ready to work hard. Ready to Rock.

Leggo.

Party of 8 - Got there!

Been a while since my last post. I'm always keeping myself  busy between grinding and working on my game (and with my students on their game), but the last month or so has probably seen me push myself to the limit, getting ready for SCOOP (in 1 week time!) - But the main reason for not writing was just a general lack of motivation.

For most ppl It's very hard to step out of their comfort zones - Think I'm better than avg in the field, but def not *uber* exited about trying new stuff I prefer skipping. Tonight I passed one of those tests - I actually made dinner! For real ppl! And not just Mr's Tilt - there were 8 of them! And they survived! (I think/hope). What might not sound like a big deal to someone, was a great deal for me... Was getting ready for this for days!
Making it work puts so much more confidence in me, that hard work (and I'm super exhausted ATM) can make everything possible, even when pure talent and desire are not 100% there.

My business's slogan is *Work Hard - Get There*. That's what we do.

Promise to write again before Scoop. Promise to write again after shipping a Scoop. Promise myself Il'l take some time off after Scoop to rest and get better... BUT FOR NOW JUST FOCUSED ON GETTING THERE.

TY

TY (thank you) for being there for me. TY for loving me. TY for supporting and tolerating me. TY for inspiring me. TY for giving me the strength to put up so much shit (and still keep getting back for more the next day). TY for being you, my one and only.

50-50

I'm not sure If I ever wrote about this before, but life's always 50-50... It's the way I look at life ever since learning that all though Poker's a game of skill - most of the ppl of the world, even the intelligent part, aren't able to accept it.

so shortly speaking

50-50 It's going to rain.
50-50 I am going to win the lotto today.
50-50 Ill die today (or you). (That's also 50% that we gonna live!).
50-50 I'll be traveling to some exotic Island over the upcoming holidays.
50-50 every hand vs every hand in poker...

etc...


Believing in the 50-50 theory makes you look at the world in a very optimistic way - No matter how deep in shit you are, u still have a 1 in 2 chance of making it! That's pretty good, right?

Lately I was talking about miracles with some of the closest ppl in my life. Some said they don't believe in such, some said were just unlucky by nature.
So whatever, I don't need no fucking miracle.
I always have 50%, that will do, and I'll take my chances...

(I did start thinking about this classic miracle...)